30 Day blog Challenge Day 30

Finally able to get on long enough to do this yays!  School is out tho so maybe now things will be less hectic & stressful.

Anyway…Day 30 – 30. A picture of yourself.

Ok…I’m not going to use a full face or recent picture of myself as I still want some anonymity since this is open to the public like it is.  But it is still to this day 1 of my favorite pictures.  I’m also going to post 1 from WoW & SL since they’re both sides of me as well.


Me & Duncan quite a few years ago



Gwennie now since she’s a faun not neko any longer


Mairwenn & Sherbert

Mairwenn & Sherbert


It’s a brand new picture of Gwennie but an old picture of Mairwenn just taken from our loading screen but couldn’t find a good picture so just gave up on it & used that 1 *laughs*

And since Gwennie is back to neko again…my latest profile picture.


Gwennie at her photo studio as a neko again

Gwennie at her photo studio as a neko again

Thanks as always to everyone for the patience & will be back soon with my awards stuff!


30 Day Blog Challenge Day 29

Day 29 – 29. Talk about your siblings.

Well since I only have 1 sister that will make things easy.  We’ve had our ups & downs over our lives…from me shoving her off the bed when she was 6 months old just because I could & stuffing her in my Barbie house when she was 3 because she wouldn’t leave it alone, to us practically living with 2 of our best friends up in my room the summer after our mom died…we’ve gone from 1 extreme to another over our lifetime.  And while we have both turned out to be very different people, we have also learned to be able to be friends as well which at 1 point I would’ve thought was an impossible thing.  Neither of us have always approved of what the other has done, but we don’t question it anymore.  And to me…that’s the biggest miracle that can happen.  I wish her all the luck in being a mom since she’s a new 1 & thank her for trying all the times she has before…even if I’m a grumpy cranky whiny bitch it was usually appreciated.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 28

Day 28 – 28. The month you were happiest this past year & why.

I am at a complete loss as to how to answer this question.  I guess the closest I can come to it is probably  December…if only because that’s the last time I was really able to lose weight.  I can’t really remember being really happy for an extended period of time in the last year so that’s the best I can do.  There’s been highlights of course but…none that would work for a full month’s worth of happiness.   *laughs* And believe me there’s no complaining at all there cause just because I can remember being really happy doesn’t mean they’ve been bad at all either.  Just…nothing super memorable.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 27

Here to get this going again hopefully. *smiles*

Day 27 – 27. Things you like/don’t like about yourself.

I’ll do the likes first I guess. *laughs*

I am or always try to be loyal, friendly, goofy, trusting, polite, understanding, special, unique, open minded, have pretty eyes, nice hair, awesome boobs, nice long nails when I haven’t broken them off *laughs*, my very off & oftentimes sarcastic sense of humor, silly, childlike view of the world alot of the time, try to treat other people like I want to be treated, am very in touch with my sexual side…sometimes too much so I think *laughs*, plus I’m sure there’s more but I think that’s a good batch so far.

Now to the things I don’t like so much.  I can be impatient, stubborn, hard headed, crude, perverted, silly or flaky, immature, too trusting, love to procrastinate, feel like I’m too needy &/or clingy, have sex on the brain a little too much, scared of so many things, my emotional eating cause it’s making it so hard to lose weight, giggle &/or laugh probably too much & when I shouldn’t.

Sometimes I have to wonder if my fear isn’t so great….of everything & everyone…that it causes me physical issues enough to limit me from getting what I feel like I want or need.  I hate living with so much fear & while yes I have worked thru alot of it…when I’m tired &/or stressed it seems to show up again even worse than before.  It seems like every time I meet a man that has potential…something has to come along & mess it up.  Either I get moody & cranky…because of either underlying fear or stress from my life, or go hide in a hole because I’m frustrated & scared & upset.  I am so scared of disappointing people or being left that I think I sometimes subconsciously…or maybe even consciously once in a while…do things that make sure that happens just so I don’t have to deal with it later when I’m actually emotionally involved & invested in the relationship.  I think that is what I dislike about myself so much is the fear that leads to that happening…& when I explain it to someone it sounds like such a lousy excuse to me that most of the time I don’t bother as I can’t see how anyone would actually believe me even if it is lame & the truth.

Anyway *laughs & blushes* there’s some of the things I do & don’t like about myself so hope my rant wasn’t too confusing.  *smiles* Huggies to all of you & thanks again for reading!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 26

And lastly today’s blog challenge.  And if anyone has any idea or suggestions for another 1 please let me know *smiles*

Day 26 – 26. A moment you felt most satisfied with your life.

I can’t pick any specific moment but…there’s been numerous times when my son was younger…he’d sneak into bed with me cause it was storming or we were on vacation or such & I’d wake up & Nicky would be snuggled up to him, & Duncan & Sammy would be on the bed too & I’d think no matter what else…I’m doing better than I ever could’ve imagined & said a nice little prayer of thanks for having what I do have.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 25

Here’s today’s!

Day 25 – 25. 5 ways to win your heart.

1.  Get to know me…really get to know me.  Talking to me is the best way for that to happen.

2. Liking cats &/or all animals is also a plus.

3. To either be a gamer or have been 1 is a good thing too cause you’ll know where I’m coming from when I get on a gaming kick.

4. *laughs* Be KE, KS, or ES

5. Listen to me & want me for who I am…not my body or what I can give you.

LOL May not be romantic ways but…they’re the surest ways to win me over.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 24

Oddly enough this is on mother’s day so it’s kind of fitting.

Day 24 – 24. Things you want to say to 5 different people.

Thank you to my mom…for everything.  And a large part of that thanks goes to helping show me how to raise my kid…even if she never even got to see him.

I know I’m a stick in the mood cranky whiny idiot alot of the time but thanks to you those times happen alot less than they could so thank you for staying so long we’re stuck with each other – to my best friend

No matter how annoyed & frustrated & cranky & boohooey I may get…I would never trade you in a million years for anything.  You are my surprise & I love you for it – to my son

Grow up & act like an adult already – 1 of the people I’ve had to deal with at my kid’s school

Thank you for showing me I deserve better & helping me figure out what that is – all my exes

And happy mother’s day to everyone because either they have a mother or are a mother…doesn’t matter if their kids are human or furry or feathery or swim or made of porcelain…all of us deserve a day to remember how awesome we can be & how awesome they were for us…because even the bad ones teach you alot…if only about how not to be that way yourself.  So huggies & thanks to everyone once again!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 23

Sorry I’ve been skipping days but it’s the end of school so been hectic here…I will finish these out even if they’re a day or 2 late. *smiles*

Day 23 – 23. Something you always think “what if…” about

I can honestly say I can’t ever remember thinking ‘what if…” about much of anything…except maybe random things due to idle curiosity.  I mean the most intelligent what if type question I’ve ever thought of was to the effect of…what if I wore a blue shirt…would it make my eyes greener or more brown?  I am who I am because of the life I’ve lived & I learned as a teenager not to look back & dwell on the past.  So for me…a what if question is no more than just another question in an ordinary day about the world around me…nothing serious & very rarely remembered for more than a few minutes afterwards.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 22

Day 22 – 22. 7 things about you people don’t really expect or would be surprised to know about you.

Ok here’s another 1 that will involve some thinking so *laughs* hopefully it won’t be too bad.

1. I am in love with Taco Bell’s hasbrowns for breakfast.  I mean their AM grilled tacos are good but the hasbrowns…*drools*

2. I like to get on WoW sometimes & me & my kid will see who can kill themselves the best…or attack the opposing faction in just a dress or something with no armor on at all…just cause we can.

3. I am a huge boyband fan…really really big. *laughs* Have been for almost as long as I can remember.

4. I eat ketchup & only ketchup on my fish sandwiches from fast food places.

5. I was going to marry Harrison Ford when I grew up when I was a kid.

6. I eat chicken & noodles almost every single week during the school year

7. I’m totally in love with a completely fictional character & have been for years.

Sorry this was late but this was 1 of the hardest things I had to do believe it or not. *laughs*

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 21

Day 21 – 21. Something you can’t seem to get over.

I’ve given this 1 alot of thought since I decided to do this list, because I knew it’d be 1 of the hardest ones to do.  But honestly…even after 3 weeks of thinking…I can’t come up with a single thing that I haven’t been able to get over.  For a long while there it was my ex-boyfriend but…in the last year or 2 I’ve finally been able to let go & forgive & get on with things.  It happened, I learned alot, & that’s that.  I know this isn’t the normal answer but it’s the only 1 that fits for me.