Day 5 Gratitude Challenge

What is different today than a year ago that you are grateful for?

The fact that even if I’ve only lost about 5 lbs in the last year, I can now actually walk short distances without wanting to die or pass out…no more than half a block or so but it’s more than I could do this time last year so I’m thrilled to tears to do it because at least now I can go out to eat with my kid & his girlfriend & not be too miserable to eat once I get into the restaurant.  Oh & I can tie my shoes on the bus again yays!

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Day 4 Gratitude challenge

What accomplishments in your life have brought you the most happiness?

Probably being told that I raised a good kid, &/or told I did a good job with him & have a good kid.  Coming from someone who was told from 16 she’d never have kids without a lot of work & even that was iffy, so I never even thought about kids, that’s a huge compliment & makes all the doubts worth it.

Day 2 of gratitude challenge

What is one thing you love about yourself?

Hmmm…let’s think.  I guess…even tho sometimes it’s totally freaking annoying…the fact that I’m at heart an optimistic person & almost always come around to seeing the best in not only people but the world.  I may feel horrid & miserable & hate everything but it never lasts for long because that damned annoying sunniness pops out…if not at random then because of the smallest of things.

1st day of a Gratitude Challenge

I figured I was doing 1 of these on facebook, but also want to do 1 here because I think the more I do it the better off I’ll be.  I know it’s a day late starting but meh…I can do 2 today to make up for it. *laughs*

What made you smile today?

That my kid’s girlfriend shoved him out of the way to hug me after I hugged him, saying it was her turn.  Something simple but gave me a good chuckle…especially the look on his face until he laughed about it too.

30 Day blog Challenge Day 30

Finally able to get on long enough to do this yays!  School is out tho so maybe now things will be less hectic & stressful.

Anyway…Day 30 – 30. A picture of yourself.

Ok…I’m not going to use a full face or recent picture of myself as I still want some anonymity since this is open to the public like it is.  But it is still to this day 1 of my favorite pictures.  I’m also going to post 1 from WoW & SL since they’re both sides of me as well.

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Me & Duncan quite a few years ago

 

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Gwennie now since she’s a faun not neko any longer

 

Mairwenn & Sherbert

Mairwenn & Sherbert

 

It’s a brand new picture of Gwennie but an old picture of Mairwenn just taken from our loading screen but couldn’t find a good picture so just gave up on it & used that 1 *laughs*

And since Gwennie is back to neko again…my latest profile picture.

 

Gwennie at her photo studio as a neko again

Gwennie at her photo studio as a neko again

Thanks as always to everyone for the patience & will be back soon with my awards stuff!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 29

Day 29 – 29. Talk about your siblings.

Well since I only have 1 sister that will make things easy.  We’ve had our ups & downs over our lives…from me shoving her off the bed when she was 6 months old just because I could & stuffing her in my Barbie house when she was 3 because she wouldn’t leave it alone, to us practically living with 2 of our best friends up in my room the summer after our mom died…we’ve gone from 1 extreme to another over our lifetime.  And while we have both turned out to be very different people, we have also learned to be able to be friends as well which at 1 point I would’ve thought was an impossible thing.  Neither of us have always approved of what the other has done, but we don’t question it anymore.  And to me…that’s the biggest miracle that can happen.  I wish her all the luck in being a mom since she’s a new 1 & thank her for trying all the times she has before…even if I’m a grumpy cranky whiny bitch it was usually appreciated.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 28

Day 28 – 28. The month you were happiest this past year & why.

I am at a complete loss as to how to answer this question.  I guess the closest I can come to it is probably  December…if only because that’s the last time I was really able to lose weight.  I can’t really remember being really happy for an extended period of time in the last year so that’s the best I can do.  There’s been highlights of course but…none that would work for a full month’s worth of happiness.   *laughs* And believe me there’s no complaining at all there cause just because I can remember being really happy doesn’t mean they’ve been bad at all either.  Just…nothing super memorable.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 27

Here to get this going again hopefully. *smiles*

Day 27 – 27. Things you like/don’t like about yourself.

I’ll do the likes first I guess. *laughs*

I am or always try to be loyal, friendly, goofy, trusting, polite, understanding, special, unique, open minded, have pretty eyes, nice hair, awesome boobs, nice long nails when I haven’t broken them off *laughs*, my very off & oftentimes sarcastic sense of humor, silly, childlike view of the world alot of the time, try to treat other people like I want to be treated, am very in touch with my sexual side…sometimes too much so I think *laughs*, plus I’m sure there’s more but I think that’s a good batch so far.

Now to the things I don’t like so much.  I can be impatient, stubborn, hard headed, crude, perverted, silly or flaky, immature, too trusting, love to procrastinate, feel like I’m too needy &/or clingy, have sex on the brain a little too much, scared of so many things, my emotional eating cause it’s making it so hard to lose weight, giggle &/or laugh probably too much & when I shouldn’t.

Sometimes I have to wonder if my fear isn’t so great….of everything & everyone…that it causes me physical issues enough to limit me from getting what I feel like I want or need.  I hate living with so much fear & while yes I have worked thru alot of it…when I’m tired &/or stressed it seems to show up again even worse than before.  It seems like every time I meet a man that has potential…something has to come along & mess it up.  Either I get moody & cranky…because of either underlying fear or stress from my life, or go hide in a hole because I’m frustrated & scared & upset.  I am so scared of disappointing people or being left that I think I sometimes subconsciously…or maybe even consciously once in a while…do things that make sure that happens just so I don’t have to deal with it later when I’m actually emotionally involved & invested in the relationship.  I think that is what I dislike about myself so much is the fear that leads to that happening…& when I explain it to someone it sounds like such a lousy excuse to me that most of the time I don’t bother as I can’t see how anyone would actually believe me even if it is lame & the truth.

Anyway *laughs & blushes* there’s some of the things I do & don’t like about myself so hope my rant wasn’t too confusing.  *smiles* Huggies to all of you & thanks again for reading!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 26

And lastly today’s blog challenge.  And if anyone has any idea or suggestions for another 1 please let me know *smiles*

Day 26 – 26. A moment you felt most satisfied with your life.

I can’t pick any specific moment but…there’s been numerous times when my son was younger…he’d sneak into bed with me cause it was storming or we were on vacation or such & I’d wake up & Nicky would be snuggled up to him, & Duncan & Sammy would be on the bed too & I’d think no matter what else…I’m doing better than I ever could’ve imagined & said a nice little prayer of thanks for having what I do have.