How my cookie seems to crumble

I’ve come to the decision that I must be a very special woman.  Because alot of the men I know…also must think that I’m a very special kind of woman.  Considering for the last few weeks, more for some than others, I feel like I’m being purposefully kept in the dark about alot of things.  And I don’t understand why. I have asked & tried & made myself available & it doesn’t seem to matter.  If there are things they don’t want me to know, then they should just tell me…not ignore my questions or whatever it is & hope it just gets forgotten or goes away.  Because it’s not going to…I just don’t work that way.

I feel like I should give everything I can to any serious relationship I’m in & all I ask is the same consideration.  If someone expects me to care about them, trust them, be there for them…they need to do the same & make sure I know it.  I don’t let any opportunity go by where I don’t reassure the people in my life I care about that I do care & how lucky I am to have them in my life.  And I know it’s asking alot of some people but it’d be nice to have them make me feel that they felt the same way about me in theirs.  How can I be all that they want or need me to be when they’re not giving me what I need in return?  To be the woman I know I am & can be I need support & trust & faith & caring.  And if that’s asking too much then I guess someone’s going to have to figure out something else to do aren’t we?