30 Day Blog Challenge Day 8

This 1 is a bit of a trick question so…*laughs* gonna answer it the best way that I can.

Day 8 – 8. Your celebrity crush of the moment

Well…after much thinking & debating…there is just no way possible for me to come up with just 1.  So I’ll do the main ones, plus 2 new ones I don’t expect to last long but…they’re here for the moment.

Ok…the new guys on the block…are Derek Hough & Torrance Coombs. (from Dancing with the Stars & Reign)  Don’t know what the fascination is with either but they’re just too freaking cute.

Then for the old guys on the block *laughs* Eric Szmanda (CSI),  Karl Urban (Almost Human, LOTR movies), Kendall Schmidt (Big Time Rush), Kian Egan (former Westlife), & Lucas Bryant (Haven) tho actually Lucas Bryant is the newest one.  The other guys….have been around for years so I don’t see them going away any time soon.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 7

Woohoo made it this long even if today’s will be short & sweet cause well…it’s been that kind of day. *chuckles*

Day 7 – 7. Something you’re currently worrying about.

There’s 2 things…losing weight, & my kid passing school.  Those are the 2 big things & I think I’ve talked about both on here so…only time will tell on either of them if my worrying has been justified or not.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 6

Happy Easter to everyone who celebrates it & Happy Sunday to everyone else!

Day 6. 5 Things within touching distance right now.

I’m gonna go with the closest things & I’m actually gonna do 5 for each hand lol

With my right hand the closest is my headset, then my bottle of Caffeine Free Diet Coke, then 2 candles stacked on top of each other, the cup of pens & pencils I keep on my desk (actually an old burn out candle not a cup), & the pile of napkins I keep on the desk instead of kleenex. *laughs*

Then for my left hand there is my cell phone, my mouse & mouse pad, the lid to my soda, a can of Cream of Mushroom soup for the hashbrown casserole I’m making later, & the plastic fork I use to get my oldest cat’s cat food out of the can for him since he has to eat on my desk so my middle cat can’t eat all his food out from under him.

May not’ve been exciting but *laughs* I’m pretty sure a few of them aren’t exactly commonplace, either.  So hope you all have a happy day & thanks for reading as always!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 5

Here’s Day number 5…thanks for reading everyone who has!  5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex

Ok…let’s see if I can do.

1 & 2. Mine who say or pretend their dominants just for the naughty parts or sex, & the women who let them get away with it because they’re too nice or unsure to call them on it.

3. Men who do a Jekyll & Hyde…as soon as they think they have you sucked in they turn from this nice, honest, wanting to get to know you person to some bossy, dictator who expects you to do everything they want without taking any time to know if that’s what the both of you want or not.

4. Men who tell a woman she’s not a submissive just because she’s not a doormat or an easy lay.

5. How judgmental some women can be…usually because they’re afraid & insecure but still doesn’t mean that they have to knock other people down just to make themselves feel better.

I know these are generalizations & all but…they are things that annoy me or irritate me or flat piss me off about 1 sex or the other.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 4

And here’s the topic for Day 4 – 4. Something you collect.

Well it’s nothing exciting but…anything kitties is mine. *laughs* I must have it.  As well as calendars from my favorite TV shows/movies/music acts.  And lastly but not least, I love anything Sleeping Beauty related because it is by far my favorite Disney movie…still till this day.  I have 3 different Aurora dolls, 2 snowglobes, 3 mugs, calendars, books, the VHS & DVD, little figurines I bought in 3 different matching sets *laughs* I’m almost as obsessed with Sleeping Beauty as I am with cats & that’s saying something.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 3

And here’s day 3 – 3. Do you have a happy place & if so what/where is it?

I actually have a couple of them since 1 works some of the time & the other works some of the time but neither of them works all of the time.  The first is of me & a semi-fictional character I have been in love with for more years than I can remember almost, in our swimwear during late afternoon, cuddled up together (yes with kissing & some groping too but not too much since we’re still dressed & in public) just barely above the water line, enjoying the waves coming up & just barely hitting our feet.  For a long while, this thought was all I needed but lately life has been getting more frustrating since I can’t eat my stress & upset away, so I found another 1 that works for the really hard stuff.  It’s loosely based on a combination of scenes from stories my best friend & I have written, so it’s a little different every time, but it involves the same semi-fictional character…tho not the same 1 as in the first happy place…& usually just a minute or 2 of running whichever version it is that day thru my head…I can face whatever’s got me in such a fit to begin with.  He’s a very dominant type personality so it always helps me kind of shake myself & forces me to look at things from another perspective so it’s good for knocking some sense into me or me out of a fit, while the other 1 is better at calming or soothing me.  So I have 1 for both occasions & thankfully I’ve not found anything yet that 1 of the 2 can’t help with…at least a bit.  May not be everyone’s thing but for me…it definitely helps.

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 2

Today’s question: 2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Wow…that could take pages to sum up but I think I’ll try to keep it as simple as I can.  *laughs* Save everyone a bit of strain on their eyes.  And I think I’ll separate it into parts to make it easier for me to not repeat anything.

Well I ended up going back onto Secondlife after swearing up & down I wasn’t going to do it because of all the heartache & problems I had that caused me to leave in the first place.  But, my best friend convinced me to get on & play Greedy with her, so I did.  And this 1 evening not long after I came back, she was off with a friend of hers so I decided to take 1 of my alts exploring & playing with RLV & traps & went to this place that sounded good.  Realized after I got there that I’d actually been there with another friend a week or 2 before, so decided to explore a bit.  Ended up getting greeted then IMed by this man & I still to this day don’t know how or why but…that was the first time I could ever remember feeling like I wanted to get down on my knees & please him any way possible…& that after only a few minutes of chat.  After that night, I did some online research & realized that instead of being dominant like I’d assumed I was my whole life, with a certain few men I was the complete opposite…& very submissive.  Which I’ll admit did explain why the few times I had tried to play Domme, I had sucked so badly at it.  I’ve met a few people since & have talked to them & they’ve helped reinforce my thoughts there….that I am submissive at the very least & maybe even a type of baby girl…tho that still remains to be seen.

I have also managed to lose weight after being diagnosed with extreme high blood pressure & edema…so even tho I have to wear compression stockings for the rest of my life I have also lost almost 30 lbs & have managed to keep it off for 4 months…which is still better than gaining it back. It’s also had an interesting side effect because my picky child has been willing to eat foods he’s never been willing to try before because he knows how much trouble I’m having & that I’m having to redo my eating so I can lose the weight & feel better & not be sick…& he’s old enough to see the difference between now & then & know it’s because of the weight & be willing to try things just to make it easier on me.  So I’ve been trying quite a few new things with my kid’s support which is always an awesome thing.

Also thanks to my kid, I have started raiding in WoW.  I never ever could’ve imagined me doing it before this expansion, even tho I did say that if Garrosh was the final boss I’d learn how to raid just to kill him. *laughs*.  Instead, I’ve been playing alot with my kid & he has been willing to hold my hand & coach me thru heroic dungeons, help me kill stuff on Timeless Isle, & help me thru the fights in the raids the first time so I wasn’t a total idiot & get myself killed on the first try.  He’s even gone so far as to point out I’m his mom in groups if they give me crap so at least I know I’m not a total embarrassment.  And playing on there with him I have made a huge improvement in my playing.  I was even able to beat him at a fair duel a few times which I never would’ve imagined that happening since I suck at PVP & in my opinion he’s really good at it…till he get frustrated at least.  So thanks to him, I’m doing so much better at WoW than I ever would’ve guessed before this expansion came out & have only got to beat Garrosh himself so something for me to look forward to.

I know there’s more but those are probably the biggest changes.  Thanks for listening as always everyone!

30 Day Blog Challenge Day 1

Since TMI Tuesday didn’t strike a chord with me today & I’ve been lousy at posting anyway…I found some 30 Day Blog challenges online in various places so I just did it my way…mixed & matched a few of them together.  Will be doing this over the next 30 days so hopefully I won’t mess up & miss a day.  Give me a reason to blog more & who knows someone might get something out of it…if only a chuckle per day!  And if anyone has an suggestions on another 1 for me to do after this, please feel free to leave a comment about it. *smiles*  So here goes the first post.

1. Weird things you do when you’re alone.

I’ve thought about this alot & honestly can’t come up with that many because well *laughs* according to some people I’m weird anyway so…I guess something i do when I’m sitting here by myself that most people probably don’t do is I sing Crazy by Patsy Cline just to watch my youngest cat nearly break her neck running in here to love on me since for someone insane reason that song seems to be her mating call.  I don’t understand it at all but it’s just as funny every single time I do it to watch her reaction…plus getting kitty lovings is always good too. *grins*

Time for a rant

Yeah…I know…barely say anything for months & now here I go on a rant.  But I need this & where better to put this than on my blog?

I have in the last month or so, been looking again for a Dom.  Well…so far…not a whole lot of luck.  I’ve met some very nice men but…sadly enough they’ve been too nice or just…nothing at all clicked there.  They were sweet & kind & polite & since I am so far from polite…as well as blunt & admittedly can have a bit of an attitude…I wasn’t about to try it when both us of would’ve had to change too much of who we are to make it work.  The rest…*shakes head* I am just so fed up with as I told a friend of mine the other night who honestly has possibilities if I didn’t screw myself totally that night…I’m to the point where I’m just going to give up on men totally again because I just can’t take much more of this bullshit.

What I want to know is…why can’t these men bother to read or if they do…why does it not sink in?  Or are they just so sure of themselves & their sexual awesomeness that they ignore what you plainly state in your profile & within the first few minutes of chatting…& go for the sexual side of things right off?  If I was just looking for a man to order me around sexually they’re a dime a dozen & I sure wouldn’t warn them away…if…that was what I was wanting.  I’m beginning to think what I feel like I need…either doesn’t exist or else I can’t have.  I need someone who is much more interested in my mind & my creativeness & how they can use it & mold it to be what they know I can be & something to stimulate them & make them proud to have me.  If I found that…the sexual side of things would fall naturally into place because I’d be begging them…not having them tell me to beg them.

I don’t know if I’m being stubborn or difficult or just unlucky but I want to know someone before I submit to them…get naked & let them direct me or me write them naughty IMs or emails.  And I’ll be the first to admit that my submissive needs probably put me on the more high maintenance side of things…but it’s how I am & i’m not going to accept less even if it means being single for another 20 yrs.  I’m also don’t quite fit as what alot of men seem to think is a submissive tho honestly I think they see sub & think slave whether it’s right or not.  And after talking to alot of other women & reading alot, I’m having to wonder if I don’t have a part of me that’s a little or babygirl.  Which means…& I am very aware of this…that I can be 1 heck of a handful & it takes a very dedicated & patient man to deal with me.  I know this…which is why I get so irritated at the ones who think that it’s all about sex when for me…my submission is so much more & so far beyond sex that to equate it with that…is to cheapen it & me in the process.  Tho the other day, as i was talking to someone the other day…I have come to a conclusion about some things I need from a Dominant.

  1. I need someone who values & encourages my opinions, but can not only tell me when he thinks I’m wrong, but is willing to explain why & give an alternative to it in a way that it makes sense to me.
  2. I need someone who doesn’t mind my switch from naughty sub to spoiled princess since I can often go from being seductive to giggling & poking someone in the blink of an eye.  Thanks to my former Master I am more comfortable with my own sexualess than I ever could have imagined being…but there’s still that brat little kid side of me that comes out more as I get more comfortable with someone.
  3. I need someone who will encourage my creativity & intelligence & help me become even more than I ever thought possible.  Someone to help me not only set goals, but guide me & give me ways to accomplish them, & be proud & show me that every step of the way.
  4. I need lots of encouragement…for everything.  But when I get it…the sun will rise & set on the man who gives it to me.  Someone who can give that part of themselves to me…I will gladly give as much of me as possible in return because he deserves it.
  5. I need someone who isn’t insulted or feels slighted because most of my weekends & evenings go to spending time with my kid & just goofing off.  I’m an adult women & I can find time to incorporate someone into my life…as long as they’re willing to have patience while I’m working out the kinks on things.
  6. I have health issues…most from my weight…& since I’m losing weight these will hopefully become less & less.  Don’t get mad at me because I can’t do such & such & don’t try to take over my diet & tell me what to eat.  Encourage me…give me ideas & suggestions to help but don’t be mad if I don’t take them as I’ve lost 30 lbs…I must be doing something right.
  7.   I respond much better all around to encouragement than punishment so it’s the easier & better way to go.  Failing to please my dominant is usually more than enough punishment itself.  And here is another case where it crosses over because the punishments that work the best…seem to be little or baby girl related such as writing something 100 times, having to say what I did wrong so many times, to stand in the corner…those types of things do alot more for me than anything else I’ve found.
  8. I guess the biggest thing is…I need someone to encourage me & guide me & who doesn’t judge me & will just let me be myself…whether that be the naughty side or the silly kid side & will value both sides equally & be proud of the woman who is his in every way.

I know this was kind of random but it honestly fits no matter what kind of relationship I am in.  If anyone has any pointers or opinions I’d love to hear them & thank you so much for letting me get this off my chest.  *huggies* to everyone!

TMI Tuesday & not an April Fool’s Day joke in it

Many of us cannot live with out computer technology and being “connected” in some manner. Computers are a huge part of our lives and thus many of us personalize our computers, smartphones, tablets, etc. to show our personalities or to be extensions of our uniqueness. This week’s TMI Tuesday is about the love affair we have with our computer devices or Computer Love.


1. What’s the wallpaper (photo, design, etc) on your phone, laptop or PC? Is it the same or different on these devices?

Different on my phone, desktop & laptop.  Right now on my desktop it’s a picture of the backside of a rat & says “I’m all out of fucks to give…but here’s a rat’s ass.”  My phone it’s my eldest cat…my baby, & on the laptop I think my son has 1 of his WoW pictures on it.

2. What’s on the desktop of your phone or notebook/tablet (i.e., icons, files, windows etc.)?

A few shortcut/icons but that’s it…weather, clock, messages, camera, gallery & I think that’s all

3. What type of computer device do you use most often?

My desktop

4. How many computer type devices do you own including smartphones?


5. Do you make sexy videos with your smartphone?

*laughs* Nope..don’t have anyone to make sexy videos for anyway

6. Do you video-chat naked or have virtual sex using your computer?

I have in the past with my ex-boyfriend but don’t make a habit of it.

7. How many naked photos of your whole body or your body parts have you taken with your smartphone camera?

Um…I haven’t exactly kept count…bad enough to admit I have done it *laughs & blushes*

8. What is the most photographed part of your body?

My finger cause I love giving it to people when they takes pictures of me.

Bonus:  Post a photo of the most photographed part of your body.

Sure…I’d love to share…enjoy *laughs*


Bonus, Bonus: Do you use a screensaver? If yes, post a pic of it.

It’s just random pictures I have on my computer so anything that catches my eye goes into that folder.